Loved this essay, as I did the very first one you published. Been there on gearing up to "reinvent" myself and spending lots of time on something meaningful only to be met with a lackluster response.
Truthfully, I don't think we'll ever find an exit. Whether we try to create as authentically as we can, or if we want to "hustle" for more money, it's always dream after dream. "This time, I'll really be satisfied."
Except we're human. And we're designed to be greedy for survival. Designed to want to be perceived but not too much, designed to want self expression but not too much, lest it come at the cost of stability.
All we can do is enjoy the ride in each phase of our life. That's really all it is, in my experience. Enjoy each phase as it comes, and try to slowly figure out the stories people will tell about you after we've long left this Earth. You've got this, Stephanie. Not because this is the next big thing for you, but because you're human, and you're doing your best to live well and make sense of it all.
Loved this essay, as I did the very first one you published. Been there on gearing up to "reinvent" myself and spending lots of time on something meaningful only to be met with a lackluster response.
Truthfully, I don't think we'll ever find an exit. Whether we try to create as authentically as we can, or if we want to "hustle" for more money, it's always dream after dream. "This time, I'll really be satisfied."
Except we're human. And we're designed to be greedy for survival. Designed to want to be perceived but not too much, designed to want self expression but not too much, lest it come at the cost of stability.
All we can do is enjoy the ride in each phase of our life. That's really all it is, in my experience. Enjoy each phase as it comes, and try to slowly figure out the stories people will tell about you after we've long left this Earth. You've got this, Stephanie. Not because this is the next big thing for you, but because you're human, and you're doing your best to live well and make sense of it all.
From one creative to another, cheers.